November 14, 2022
We walked the tree-lined brick paths of the campus of Belmont Abbey College just after sunset. The twin Gothic spires of the basilica rose into the darkening sky. We pushed the massive door open and walked into the silence. We saw no one else. Sandy knelt in the last pew. I looked around. It was nearly 7:00 PM, time for Compline, the monks’ evening prayer.
Since our daughter graduated from the school, run by the Benedictine monastic order, the fundraisers there fire a steady stream of emails and letters at us. A week earlier one of them announced a talk and piano recital by Rev. Robert Nixon, a Benedictine from an abbey in a remote corner of Australia. Sounds exotic, I thought. His topic: “The Love of Learning and the Search for God.” He would touch on the lives of the Benedictines, including St. Anselm, the patron of my alma mater. I pushed for going.
Belmont Abbey, in Belmont, just south of Charlotte, is 80 hard miles up I-85. South Carolina has been widening its stretch of the road for years, and for years it’s been a death trap—the actual words of a state coroner last summer. At least 30 of those 80 miles, maybe more, are narrow chutes past rows of jersey walls and construction cones that bring traffic to a halt any time of day or night between the state line and our place. Still, we needed to get out of the house.
The drive up was tough, past construction crews and their rows of earth-moving vehicles, but we arrived at the campus a bit early. We brought a picnic dinner with us and ate at a table outside the campus theater, where students were rehearsing MacBeth. As we walked to the basilica, a monk appeared with his breviary. “Come to Compline,” he said with a smile, and hurried off.
We waited. At seven the lights went on and the monks filed in and took seats around the altar, the way Benedictines do in obedience to the Rule of St. Benedict, who founded the Order 1,500 years ago. One waved at us to join them. We stood with the others as the Abbot entered. Father Nixon took a seat next to Sandy. When the prayer ended we found a place in the front row. The crowd flowed in. I set my recorder near the lectern.
He introduced himself, joking about his thick Australian accent. “As you can tell, I’m not from around here,” he said. “I live at the Abbey of the Most Holy Trinity at New Norcia, in western Australia.” No one in the audience had ever heard of New Norcia. “If you saw the movie ‘Crocodile Dundee’ you know what it’s like,” he said. “Crocs, venomous snakes, wallabies, kangaroos, scrub, desert.” The crowd laughed.

He was a young man, I guessed late thirties. He explained that in his former life he was a classical pianist, then after turning 33 entered the seminary, studied philosophy and theology, and discovered a gift for Latin. At New Norcia he found his vocation as a Benedictine. His mission now is translating the ancient works of Christian scholars from the original Latin, in the tradition of Europe’s medieval monks. He is director of the Institute for Benedictine Studies at the Abbey and a fellow at Trinity College of Music in London—but still gets on the road for speaking tours and concerts.
With all that finished, he escorted us through the experience of the Benedictines, through Christianity’s fierce philosophical and religious debates, heresies, and wars that continued through the Early and Later Middle Ages, into the Renaissance, to this day.
He paused and stepped to the piano and played for us, a hypnotically beautiful piece by Rachmaninoff that resounded off the stone walls of the basilica, filling the place with the magic of classical piano. Then he stood and walked back to the lectern.
“My title is inspired by a book by a great Benedictine of the 20th century, Jean Leclercq: The Desire for God and the Love of Learning, he said. He went on:
“I would like to suggest that all human learning is a search for God. Whatever we’re studying, we’re studying the work of God, the creation of God—whether it’s the humanities, whether it’s the natural sciences, whether it’s philosophy or theology, ultimately everything which exists is of God, contains the trace of God, something of the glory and goodness of God.
“When we try to search for God, we find ourselves encountering something of a brick wall, a blank slate. We think, ‘Well, I’m looking for God, but what is God?’ But God is ultimately beyond our understanding. God has given us this created universe, given us the glory of the human person for the sole purpose of coming to know him, of coming to love him. Ultimately all of our love, all of our desires, are part of this one single desire, for the ultimate reality, for the only true reality, which is God Himself.”
He turned back to the piano, and played again, the sound of his keystrokes rose above us.
He moved on, sharing insights on the great Benedictines, St. Benedict (480-547), who founded the Order in 529; St. Gregory the Great (540-604), who also was Pope and a nephew of Benedict; St. Bede the Venerable (672-736), known as the historian of England; St. Anselm (1033-1109), Archbishop of Canterbury, who created the famous “ontological argument” for God’s existence.
He played again, then talked about St. Bernard of Clairvaux (1090-1153), author of many devotional works. St. Hildegard of Binken (1098-1179), he said, was one of the first great women saints, a philosopher and naturalist. Johannes Trithemius, the German mystic and cryptographer (1462-1516), was considered the most knowledgeable man of his time.
As he walked us through history, he added, “If we reflect more deeply on the human condition, we realize that our happiness, our fulfillment, doesn’t depend on the things of the external world. It depends on our interior being … . As our Lord Jesus Christ said, “The kingdom of God is within.”
He played a composition that summoned dreams of spring, playing with one hand, five fingers flying over the keys. Then he paused and stood, and spoke: “All of you, especially the students here at Belmont Abbey, are invited into this wonderful spirituality—the spirituality of the search for God and love of learning, which in the final analysis is one and the same.”
We joined the crowd, mostly students, on the basilica steps in the bracing autumn air. The kids laughed, chatted, and lined up for hot chocolate, cider, and cookies. The lawns around us glowed in moonlight. The monks filed out of the basilica. We waved goodbye, and headed for the car and the trip home, away from this special, beautiful place.





