March 31, 2024
A week ago, on Palm Sunday, the priest read from the Gospel of Mark. Holy Week services beckoned at the start of the Triduum, the evening of Holy Thursday through Easter, the day Christians commemorate and reaffirm the truth of their faith.
This year, Holy Week came with prescriptions for benzonatate, azithromycin, doxycycline, and methylprednisolone for the lungs, then polymyxin B sulfate for the eyes. A second 30-day supply of erdafintinib, trade name Balversa, arrived.
The week followed the Moscow terror attack then the Baltimore ship-bridge collision. Yet the past two weeks brought rousing adventures: a trek to Black Rock Mountain, propped up by strong, passionate friends, then the Alabama-Tennessee trip with the grandsons, reported here last week.
Holy Week builds to Christ’s resurrection from his awful death on the cross. It is there, offered in all the Gospels, which invite sublime, mysterious joy, but also understanding: joy emerges from pain and darkness.
A week ago, on a chilly, overcast morning, we drove to an Urgent Care. The nurse practitioner unfurled her stethoscope and listened. She detected my heart murmur but found the lungs clear.
“Try Flonase,” she said. We have tubes of it lying around the house. Then the conjunctivitis “pinkeye” attacked, sealing the eyes shut overnight. We ran from the house to pick up the polymyxin drops.
On Tuesday we read of the heroism of the pilot of the cargo ship careening towards Baltimore’s Francis Scott Key Bridge who at 1:30 AM sent a Mayday to officers on both ends the bridge. Withing minutes they shut down bridge traffic, saving lives.
The 2,700-foot trek up Black Rock Mountain in North Carolina’s Plott Balsam Mountains came in mid-month. It was my fourth Black Rock junket. The horn sounded, starting the race. More than 160 runners launched up the first climb. I lurched forward, coughing. Elise and Todd, good-hearted fast people, stayed close up the rocky switchbacks.
The trail unfolded before us. They sprinted for one- or two-hundred-yard patches, stretching their powerful legs. Beyond the treetops the valley below glowed in pale-blue haze. After three miles of fireroad we found the quarter-mile single-track trail to the summit. Elise flew up, Todd hung back with me. I climbed, in ten- or twenty-yard stretches, reaching for logs, branches, roots.
Flashes of blue sky appeared. The trail leveled off, the red marker flags led us under the final granite overhangs that took us down then up to more climbing, descending, scrambling to the massive boulder at the summit. We crawled up and stretched, and blinked in glorious sunlight at the panorama from the peaked roof of western North Carolina.
We maneuvered down, pulled by gravity, around and over the twisted roots, rocks, fallen logs. At the fireroad, the volunteers waiting with their ATVs gave us a cheerful wave. We turned south for the wild three-mile near-3,000-foot descent. I found my pace and stride. We flew down, the forest falling away behind us. We hit the intersection with the approach trail, then saw the flash of parked vehicles through the trees at the finish.
The Triduum arrived Thursday in bright sunshine, as Spring transformed nature. We stood for the start of the Mass of the Last Supper, the commemoration of Christ’s last miracle, the first Eucharist, the arrest, the scourging, the midnight interrogation. We stood for the agony that presaged the nightmares of two millennia and those still to come.
The choir intoned Psalm 116: “How can I repay the Lord for all his goodness to me? The cup of salvation I will raise; I call on the name of the Lord.” The lector read from Paul’s first epistle to the Corinthians, 23-26, when Christ offered the bread and wine: “This is my body, this is my blood, do this in remembrance of me.”
The lines are the perennial remembrance and reassurance of faith. John’s Gospel then tells the penetrating story of Christ kneeling to wash his apostles’ feet, saying, “what I am doing you will not understand now, but you will understand later.” The priest reenacted this solemn task, kneeling, in his white vestments, to wash the bare feet of twelve young men on the altar. He kissed their feet.
The priest spoke and raised the cup. We prayed for the victims of the present moment, those newest in our minds and in the headlines, all the terror attacks, all the victims we know, those we don’t know, those still with us, others who have departed. The Mass ended in silence, the Eucharist carried to a nearby place, remaining for hundreds who stayed to pray. The solemnity of the night lingered.
We stayed warm, gulped our medicine, daubed our eyes with the drops, swallowed tylenol to sleep. In the morning we watched the dawn of Good Friday, the pale blue sky promising warmth, Spring’s arrival.
The Triduum moved forward through the aftermath of tragedy, the search for the missing in Baltimore, the missile attacks in Ukraine, Gaza, Israel, the nightmare political news, the lacerating, relentless cruelty of cancer.
Then memories returned, distant and recent, of good-heartedness of children, kindnesses of old friends, grateful moments with new friends in the warm sunlight at Black Rock, the joy of the grandsons in Chattanooga. Then the Triduum, and Resurrection.