December 1, 2025

Sandy’s shepherd’s pie won the prize in the “savory” category at Pie Night, hosted by a friend, Elise, at her parents’ farm at the rural end of Greer, near South Carolina’s share of the Blue Ridge. We had been to Pie Night before, an annual event. Guests bring savory and dessert-type pies, sample them, then vote for their favorites. You can eat too much.

We got there a little early. It was quiet, I walked past the massive barn and looked around. Rough woods surround the farmhouse. A small lake flashed through the trees. A couple of horses grazed in a pasture, children chased chickens that wandered unpenned near the house. It was Mountain South Glorious.

In the cool evening we visited with Elise’s parents, Luther and Sherrie, greeted guests, and helped arrange the pies, savory on one table, sweet on another. We formed a line cafeteria-style.

The last time we were out there, around Easter, we missed our turn and stayed on Pennington Road into gorgeous country. U.S. 11, a few turns away, runs northeast to Gaffney near the North Carolina state line. Westbound, it extends for about 70 miles, crossing into Pickens then Oconee Counties, passing giant Lake Jocassee, to I-85 near Lake Hartwell and Georgia.

Just over the line in North Carolina are Flat Rock and Carl Sandburg’s home. The area forests were ravaged by Hurricane Helene north and east to Lake Lure and the little tourist spot of Chimney Rock, which was nearly obliterated. Beauty and tragedy collided. The scars, the flattened trees, will litter the landscape for years.

The wreckage, the legacy of the storm, darkened a sense of the past year. Today spirits are lacerated by the stain of presidential corruption; slouch toward authoritarianism, murders in the Caribbean, revenge prosecutions, extra-legal deportations and abuse of brown-skinned people, fawning on dictators, a bootlicking Congress.

We put all that aside and navigated to the farm. It was nearly Thanksgiving, after all. The evening was a brilliant, soothing stab at normalcy. Kids played on swings hanging from giant oaks. A crackling bonfire burned. Guests talked about family, work, travel, holiday plans.        

On Thanksgiving Eve we cooked a few things and visited friends Mark and Allie and their children. We traded stories, Mark talked of visiting his folks in Sidney, in eastern Montana and hikes with his brother in North Dakota. We looked at photos of his place and the North Dakota prairie, dotted with petrified tree stumps. Mark’s and Allie’s niece told of her four-day trek along the Foothills Trail, which runs across South Carolina’s northern fringe.

Thursday started with late-fall chill. We headed downtown for the morning holiday run, daughter Marie and grandson Noah did the 5K. I shuffled through the 8K. Thousands showed up to enjoy this traditional cold-weather trek through the city to Cancer Survivor Park and Unity Park. Volunteer road guards smiled and yelled “Happy Thanksgiving” as the back-of-the-packers slogged into downtown. The morning sun warmed us and spread gladness.

Later in Greer Mark tended a bonfire and cooked bacon. Friends arrived, a neighbor offered a prayer, Allie created a bountiful breakfast for ten or twelve, at least. The talk shifted to everyday things, careers, family, cooking. We went on a bit about health, as old folks will do, test results, what comes next.

That afternoon Marie and son-in-law Mike prepared the traditional sides, Sandy provided the turkey. We said our Thanksgiving prayer and passed things around, the dog waited near the table for his share. I called Mike’s homemade gluten-free cheesecake a success. The boys look forward to their “Christmas Days of Fun” and the Gingerbread House Competition at Asheville’s Grove Park Inn.     

Daughter Kathleen and Steve in Wyoming set out a spread for local friends; Laura and Michael called, Laura reported three inches of snow in St. Paul. Distant friends sent good wishes.

The chill deepened into the mid-20s by morning. Gusts swirled, leaves scuttled across streets. Many neighbors already have set out their inflated Santas and plastic nativity scenes, here and there alongside each other for a confusing Yuletide message, but cheerful and bright. Some homes already have lined their eaves with multicolored lights. We are not there.

The message of the Season is descending as it always does, happy or somber. We work to carry the smiles and hopes of Thanksgiving into the coming month, already darkened by the tightening noose around Ukraine, death of a National Guard trooper in Washington, the coldness of national leadership. What remains is the will of so many around us, so many we know who do good, seek virtue, conquer despair.

Yet again, Pie Night, when Elise penned a question: most memorable Thanksgiving? This one for sure, topping the last one, which topped the one before that. It is the people who give thanks, who persevere against tragedy facing those who don’t have Thanksgiving or Christmas.

We remember them, we do what we can to raise them up. We think of those who live in service, they are all around us. And we hope for reason to give thanks now, and through the year.

November 24, 2025

Pat Brostek, co-director of the food pantry at Holy Family parish in Dale City, Virginia, is in her basement office Monday taking calls from pantry clients. Her husband Mike had picked up donations from Panera Bread Sunday evening: bread, bagels, other food items.

The volunteers will get donations from Food Lion Monday. On Wednesday Target donates food. On Friday two veteran volunteers, Charlie and Rose, get stuff at Safeway. Parishioners leave food donations in the church hallway.

Twice a month the pantry gets a delivery from a warehouse in Manassas run by St. Lucy’s, the food bank for the Diocese of Arlington. St. Lucy’s is supported by the Capital Area Food Bank and Feeding America, which coordinates the work of thousands of food banks and food pantries.

Pat taught and worked as a librarian in local public schools for years. She started volunteering at the pantry 10 years ago, when it occupied a tiny room in the church basement. Donations, stacked in two closets, included canned vegetables and fruit, soup, tuna, and chicken, boxes of pasta, cereal, crackers, bags of rice. A few years ago local groceries began donating fresh vegetables. The pantry dips into its budget to buy meat and eggs, other perishables.  

I volunteered for four years. For hours I hunched low in the closet to fill the paper sacks with food: two cans of vegetables, two cans of fruit, two boxes of pasta and soup, cereal, and so on. The next day my back ached. Later I moved up to meeting clients, giving them their packages, and entering information on a rickety computer.

We worked for Ana, who managed the operation. Two or three others showed up a day or two each week. A lilt of cheerful Spanish livened the place. Debbie and Maria, natives of Peru, sorted donations and packed bags for clients. They meticulously scrawled expiration dates on cans and boxes. Debbie’s family kept an apartment in Lima, she said if Sandy and I ever visited Peru we could stay there.

The donation system was and still is no-frills but good enough. Sometimes we ran out of things. Sometimes arrangements didn’t work out. I drove 20 miles round-trip to a Harris Teeter in Manassas a half-dozen times. They handed over stale birthday cakes, brownies, donuts, and cookies, as if to overdose our people on sugar. A local “organic” grocery contributed vegetables, mostly spoiled, that went in the trash.

The pantry requires appointments, clients get one per month. Pat and others take calls between 10 AM and 2 PM Mondays and Wednesdays to a limit of 25 families per day. Clients arrive for pickup between 4:00 and 5:00 PM Mondays and 3:30 to 4:30 Wednesdays. Volunteers spend Tuesdays and Thursdays sorting donations and packing bags.

People receive about 60 pounds of food. Parents can get baby formula and diapers. The packages must be weighed and the total weight of donations reported to the Capital Area Food Bank.

Until a few years ago, clients reported to the food pantry office for their appointments.  Sometimes people showed up without appointments. One guy came nearly every week asking only for bread, arguing that it was okay because that’s all he wanted. I recall some tense moments, but Ana would smooth things out. No one left empty-handed.

During the pandemic volunteers staged food packages on tables in the church parking lot, clients would pull up in their cars and walk over to get their packages. Now all pickups are outside.

Volunteers like me come and go. Pat stayed the course and now runs the place. She deals with the church administration, coordinates donations and pickups, and trains new people. About 20 folks take shifts.

The place has had its melodrama. Before I left a new pastor, cutting costs, laid off the two paid staff people (no benefits) who managed the parish’s social outreach, including the pantry. He wanted to shut the place down. The volunteers gave him a letter reminding him of the mission: feeding the poor. He backed off.

That guy retired or was replaced. Pat then endured an internal spat between a now-former pantry director and the next pastor over how to run the pantry and whether to continue the work.

I left because of health problems but still showed up occasionally until we moved away. My food-pantry days offer some sweet memories: happy potluck Christmas parties, heavy on exotic Latin dishes, smiles, hugs, good words. Sometimes we went out to lunch. One day, while packing food I lost my wedding band, probably by dropping it in a sack. After I left the Hispanic ladies called all the day’s clients to ask if anyone had found it. No luck.

Ana, from Guatemala, talked of her childhood there, when she survived the devastating earthquake that struck the country in 1976. She worries about political violence but still returns to visit family.

The mission of the Holy Family operation and all food charities now is defined by the government’s cuts to food assistance. The pantry used to average about 130 families per month, about 700 people across the three local zip codes. In October, the figures were 177 families, more than 900 people, 209 were new clients. Last Wednesday when Pat arrived at the office she found 31 phone messages seeking appointments.

Feeding America and other sources report that some 47 million Americans are “food-insecure.” The stock market is up but that number is growing. Some are Hispanic, some are Middle Eastern, some have English and Irish surnames. Good people step up to work long hours at food pantries and food banks in every city and town in America. They are present, in service for others. We know who they are, or should know.

November 17, 2025

Our Virginia running group went back to Bayse, Virginia, last weekend, a remote little place just west of Mount Jackson and New Market in Shenandoah County. Alex, one of the oldtimers, owns a house in Bayse, so we had a place to stay. We did our traditional things, mountain hikes, cocktails, trading stories. These semi-annual get-togethers seem more important now.

On Sunday morning nearly everyone left, Kevin and I stayed one more night so I could drop him at Dulles for a Monday flight. On Sunday afternoon we wanted to get away from Bayse’s dense forest and narrow mountain roads. Alex had mentioned the Virginia Museum of the Civil War in New Market. Why not, we thought.

These were the last days of the federal shutdown, while the government is blowing up boats and people in the Caribbean. The political parties and everyday folks are at each other’s throats, the country is torn apart. We have no leaders of boldness, character, and integrity. The Civil War, represented in that little museum along a rural interstate, seemed the right metaphor.

The graceful structure houses exhibits, photos, and artifacts that capture the full panorama of the war: the angry debate over slavery, the first shots at Fort Sumter, the exhausted end at Appomattox. But why here, in this place? Virginia was the setting for major Civil War engagements: Bull Run, Chancellorsville, the Wilderness, the Peninsula, Fredericksburg, Petersburg, Richmond. Why New Market, in the boondocks 150 miles from Richmond?

There’s the American Civil War Museum, with a site at Appomattox, where Confederate General Robert E. Lee surrendered to Union General Ulysses Grant on April 9, 1865, and a second site at Tredegar Iron Works in Richmond. There’s a National Civil War Museum in Harrisburg. Here in Greenville, S.C., we have the Museum and Library of Confederate History.

But New Market is the right place for commemoration of a fight on May 15, 1864, when a few thousand Confederates routed a larger Union force. The background: Grant sent Gen. Franz Sigel with about 9,000 men to take control of the Shenandoah Valley, which extends east-west roughly from the Blue Ridge mountains to the West Virginia state line. Grant expected Sigel to sweep through the Valley then turn east against Lee at Richmond.

Some 4,000 rebels were commanded by Gen. John Breckenridge, who had been vice president under President James Buchanan, then served in the Senate from Kentucky. Initially he supported preserving the Union, but when war started went with the rebels. At New Market, 247 cadets of the Virginia Military Institute in Lexington, ages 15 to 18, stepped forward as Breckenridge’s reserve.

Breckenridge took the initiative and attacked a leading edge of Sigel’s force, an infantry brigade and a cavalry brigade. Sigel’s main force was massed north of Bushong’s Farm. The rebels pushed the Yankees past the town of New Market. They paused their attack to reorganize, when Sigel’s troops opened fire. The Confederates retreated. At that point, it’s reported, Breckenridge reluctantly called the VMI cadets to advance.

The Yankees attacked but were driven back by Confederate artillery fire. As the rebels moved forward, several cadets lost their shoes in the mud, which later prompted the sobriquet “Field of Lost Shoes.” Union Gen. Sigel ordered a retreat, the Yanks broke off and headed north to Strasburg.

Union casualties came to 93 killed, more than 500 wounded, the Confederates lost 43 dead, 475 wounded. But the rebs had more heartbreak. Five of their combat dead were VMI cadets. Five more later died of wounds, 50 others were wounded. These were teenage boys.

Grant replaced Sigel with Gen. David Hunter, who advanced south through summer as far as Lynchburg. In Lexington he burned VMI. Lee sent Gen. Jubal Early to counterattack. Early advanced north to the Potomac and burned Chambersburg, Penn., in August. In October Union Gen. Phil Sheridan routed Early at Cedar Creek near Strasburg. Historians argue Sheridan’s victory helped ensure Lincoln’s reelection.

By October the war had shifted east to Richmond and Petersburg, which the Yankees had held under siege since spring. Vicious fighting continued until April, when Lee was cornered and asked for Grant’s surrender terms at Appomattox.

The New Market museum captures all this. A large window on the north side of the building looks out at the “Lost Shoes” field where those young kids, thrown into bloody combat by adults, charged into enemy guns. The museum offers a graphic video of the recreation of the battle, including the agonies of those dying boys.

In the cruel history of the war, their suffering was pointless. The minor Confederate victory at New Market had no impact on Grant’s relentless campaign against Lee. The Union forces, superior in men and resources and supported by the North’s industrial strength, would not be defeated by the agrarian South and its brave but smaller, poorer army.

The accepted figure for Civil War deaths is around 620,000. The American Battlefield Trust estimates that for every three men who died in combat, five died from non-combat-related disease. Their sacrifice is immortalized in museums, from Richmond, the Confederate capital, to Harrisburg, to Greenville, to dozens of other cities. They were Americans.

Lincoln’s generous dream for Reconstruction died with him. In following decades the country plunged into a nightmare of racism, violence, and corruption that has resurfaced today.

On Friday afternoon, on my way to Bayse, I pulled off I-81 at Lexington and drove through downtown. I passed upscale restaurants, coffee shops, boutiques. At VMI a ceremony was going on. Hundreds of cadets in their sharp uniforms were completing a formation. Officers in the active-duty military services stood supervising. I didn’t stop.

About 80 miles farther north I passed New Market. I could see the museum off to the west, abutting the Field of Lost Shoes and the rebuilt Bushong farmhouse. I wasn’t thinking about what happened there in May 1864. We are thinking about America. We have no Lincoln. What we have are lessons, taught, perhaps, at New Market.

November 10, 2025

A half-dozen folks stood at the hospital reception desk, a couple of them a little edgy. A woman tried to reschedule a canceled appointment, the receptionist proposed a date that she couldn’t keep. She argued.  An older guy rocked back on his heels, nerves getting to him.

We’d all rather be somewhere else. “I’m here for my CT,” I said. She handed me a cellphone-shaped device.

Within minutes the gadget glowed, as if my restaurant table was ready. A staff person waved. She held out her hand for the device and said, “Follow me.” We walked to her office. She pointed to a chair, I sat. “Looks like you’re busy today,” I said, trying to break the ice. “It’s always like this,” she answered without looking up.

“Full name and birthdate?”  I answered. She made a check on a form. “Do you have a living will?” Yes, I said, although I’m not sure where it is. “Sign here,” she said, pushing an electronic signature device at me. I signed. She printed a sticker with my name and birthdate, taped it to a paper bracelet, and fastened the bracelet to my wrist. She stood. “This way.” We walked to an inner waiting room. A half-dozen people stared at cellphones or straight ahead.

I had been there before, not sure how many times since we arrived from Virginia five years ago. This would be my 27th computed tomography (CT) scan since fall 2018. I had the first batch in Virginia, at Sentara Hospital in Woodbridge. I continued the streak shortly after we arrived in Greenville, S.C.

“This is Cindy, she’ll take care of you,” the staff person said, motioning toward a lady in scrubs standing next to the CT scanner. The machine resembles a giant donut fitted to a platform on which the patient lies. For the procedure, the technician hits a switch and the platform slides into the donut, which fires X-rays at the patient, targeting the body parts the doctor wants scanned. For me it’s always been chest to thighs.

Cindy smiled and pointed to the platform. I emptied my pockets, climbed aboard, and stretched my arms above my head. She pressed the switch, the platform slid into the donut. The machine chirped, “Hold your breath” for the initial check, then “Breathe.” If the set-up pass is good, the process is repeated to obtain the scan. The new machine at Greer Memorial can complete the scan in about ten seconds. I got up and thanked Cindy.

Within hours a radiologist looks at the scan image and sends it with his report to my oncologist. The hospital also sends the report to the patient. In Virginia, I recall, it took a couple of days. Technology is swifter now. I get the email within hours.

Cancer therapy changes and evolves. The Food and Drug Administration has approved a fast-track review process, the Commissioner’s National Priority Voucher, for selected drugs that show promise during clinical trials. The Washington Post has reported that one of them, daraxonrasib, developed by the biotech company Revolution Medicines, showed remarkable results for pancreatic cancer, shrinking one patient’s tumor by 64 percent. Other patients experienced similar impressive reductions. The drug also is being looked at for lung and colorectal cancer.

The article follows many others hinting at a cure for cancer sometime in the future. But really the data aren’t going there. The newspaper story on daraxonrasib notes that “the median overall survival was 15.6 months,” said to be about twice as long as with standard treatments.

The National Cancer Institute says that pancreatic cancer is the third-leading cause of cancer deaths, with a five-year survival rate of 13 percent. For patients whose cancer has metastasized, the rate falls to 3 percent. Both numbers are unchanged over 30 years.

The survival figures vary for the vast range of other cancers. Some are well-known by generic references to specific organs: breast, prostate, lung, brain, kidney, ovarian, bladder. Then there are so-called “lesser-known” cancers, including gallbladder, esophageal, small-bowel cancers, many others. My own case, thymic carcinoma, is the first my doctor has ever treated. I escaped kidney cancer but having the left one removed six years ago.

The science of oncology recognizes hundreds, possibly thousands of strains of cancer, some distinguishable only at the genetic level and identified by numbers or scientific markers. Some of these strains are extremely rare, even unique to individuals or groups. My brother died of a cancer identified by a three-digit number.  

Everyone knows smoking causes lung cancer and too much sunlight may cause melanoma, skin cancer. Generations of research funded by the Cancer Institute, American Cancer Society, and individual hospital and medical schools have identified near-limitless potential contributing factors, among them genetic, environmental, diet, injury, infection, on and on.

What we know, bottom line, is that cancer doesn’t go away. It may seem to go away for some folks, who experience “remission.” We like to think miracles happen. But it never actually disappears. That’s why “cures” are counted in months and years of life extension, like the 15.6 months cited for daraxonrasib. Among all the oncologists I’ve seen, none ever talked about “curing” cancer.

I’ve had a good run, three pretty positive scans over the past year. In February the doc excused me from my oral chemo pill, erdafintinib,  to enjoy a “drug holiday.” The unpleasant side effects disappeared. But we both know it’s a crapshoot. My new CT scan report notes a “mild increase in size of left pericardial and perirectal soft tissue nodules versus lymph nodes.” Two other lung “nodules” and the one in the liver appear stable, but the radiologists hedged a bit, from what I could understand.

The radiologist is giving the scan a fast look, my doc checks it and makes his own judgment. He’ll give me the full story. The plan is to keep enjoying my drug holiday. “We’ve got the drug in our back pocket, just in case,” the doc said the last time we met. Maybe it will stay there a little longer.

November 3, 2025

The trick-or-treaters lined up at the front door in the more-or-less ancient ritual. I quizzed a couple of them about their costumes. Many wore getups of video-game characters I didn’t recognize.  I dropped a couple of quarters in each of their bags. They looked puzzled but yelled “Thank you!” and ran back into the darkness. I could see the silhouette of a parent out on the sidewalk. He or she waved, I waved back.

We started giving out quarters on Halloween years ago, knowing many parents aren’t thrilled by sacks of candy in the house, even for Halloween. A couple of years ago, thinking of inflation, we doubled it to fifty cents. “Save it for college,” I say to the older ones.

Hard to say if it’s cost-effective, although it doesn’t matter. Instead of those bags of mini-Snickers bars, lollipops, and the traditional yellow-and-orange candy corn, I bought a couple of rolls of quarters. Twenty bucks’ worth would cover forty kids. On Halloween afternoon we’d arrange the quarters in stacks of two and be ready. In recent years we’ve given them out by 8:00 PM, when trick-or-treating is pretty much over.

Halloween has changed. Hardly anyone today knows that it evolved in a convoluted, obscure way from the medieval Catholic observance of Hallowtide, which recognizes the feast of All Saints on November 1, when the canonized saints are honored, and All Souls the following day, when those who have passed, but are undergoing purification in Purgatory, are remembered.

Over generations, the religious underpinning of the season ebbed away. Last week the Christian magazine First Things published an article entitled “The Death of Halloween” by Justin Lee. He speculated that when Pope Gregory III moved All Saints Day to November from May in the eighth century, the rites naturally merged with the ceremonies of an ancient Celtic autumnal festival called Samhain that marked the approach of winter.

In the U.S., the coming of autumn with its glowing, glorious foliage, bonfires, crisp cool air, pumpkin harvests, and family gatherings remains a perennially upbeat, happy time. A Greenville company, Seasons of Grace Porches, decorates porches and business entryways with cheerful stacks of pumpkins, chrysanthemums, cornstalks, and other signs of the bounty of nature. 

Some historians trace a connection between Hallowtide’s reverence for saints with the Samhain fixation on the “otherworld,” when spirits of the dead became visible and the gates of Hell opened, releasing fiends and goblins. People would leave offerings of food to placate the spirits. Young men would wear disguises and seek payments, an echo of trick-or-treating.

All this cultural reconstruction merged over centuries with the evolution of religious traditions of respect for or fear of the spirits of the dead. In the 17th century English Protestants banned the Catholic observance of “souling” which, Lee writes, prefigured trick or treating and jack o’lanterns. People carried lanterns made from hollow turnips, seeking prayers for the departed. Other traditions encouraged celebration and partying as a release from the dark preoccupation with death.

These days the parents who get their kids’ costumes on Amazon generally are clueless about all the ponderous history. Decades ago, when Halloween amounted to moms dressing their little girls as princesses and little boys as cowboys or firemen and dads carving jack-o’lanterns, that was all there was to it.

The kids roamed the neighborhood and brought home sacks of candy. They were footsore and ready for bed. Parents inspected the haul. In following weeks they would distribute the candy as a sort of allowance until it was gone or turned stale. And that was Halloween. On to Thanksgiving.

Some years ago, still in Virginia, we noticed that a couple in our neighborhood—didn’t know them well —did nothing to decorate for Christmas—no lights, Santa, or angels. Instead they went all-out at Halloween: lights, ghosts, witches, fake skeletons. The effect was scary, ghoulish, haunted. I wondered what treats they offered to the kids, if any kids dared approach.

Over time, although All Saints still is a Catholic holyday and All Souls remains a commemoration, Halloween’s religious content was replaced by varying degrees of vandalism. In the 1960s and 1970s teenagers smashed windows and slashed tires. In our neighborhood in New Jersey “Cabbage Night,” the night before Halloween, included egging houses, soaping car windows, smashing pumpkins, and laying yards of toilet paper on trees and landscaping.

Halloween riots occurred in major cities. The dark turn became darker with the slasher movies of the 1980s, which studios released around Halloween. The season became big business. You can find giant plastic skeletons, witches, and goblins for sale at Lowe’s, Home Depot, and Walmart in August. A while back a neighbor here kept a twelve-foot-high skeleton upright on his front lawn for most of a year, until the HOA made him take it down.

Right now, in this and in lots of other places, a single skeleton wouldn’t stand out. Yards are littered with fake corpses, plastic bones, tombstones, giant nylon spiderwebs. Some of them are genuinely scary. A few residents have mounted orange and yellow lights. They also have sound systems that roar and cackle.

It’s true, we live in a dark time. There’s an art to being scary, which you find in Edgar Allen Poe’s stories and Stephen King’s novels. I wonder if the front-yard displays convey some deeper meaning about our moment. Maybe it really is for fun. But the effect is grim. The meaning of Hallowtide, is lost, forgotten.

I did my part, giving my humble jack o’lantern a scowling face. It sits outside for a few nights before and after the big night, illuminated by a single candle. The trick-or-treaters walk by. It has not yet scared anyone.